她接下来的故事

16 July 2014
你发来的是你 intern 公司的照片。

 19 July 2014
说的是我们两的成绩， 她3.76， 他3.96.

 接下来的故事 也不知为何是些伤心的事 也不知为何事情会演变成那样 他说的是 让我们退后回到朋友的位置 你真的以为能那么容易像倒退车 把gear推到reverse 轻易倒退吗？

21 August 2014
"siew yee, we r still frens right?" 
那天早上九点四十分收到的信息。
那天早上我只记得我哭得很惨。
那天下午什么也没吃。
我不喜欢猜测， 不喜欢不清不楚， 要求了双方的坦白。
彼此说了很多。
有些事情，我，还是没能明白。
假装。很好。 
然后 那年的八月尾到二零一五年的二月开学前，彼此还有交谈，只是真的很少。 开学了， 起初我避而远之，因为不知该怎么面对。 到后来的比较没那么尴尬。

 20 March 2015
他的生日。弄了个 polygon portrait,发了过去。 

12 April 2015
他帮我买了个 hot water beg.
如果只是朋友， 为什么要吧给我买。

18 April 2015
Heartbeat 跳到能感觉自己的心跳。快到连呼吸也很辛苦。
也不知哪来的勇气。
二十三岁。做的最疯狂的事情。
表态，只因不想再猜测你的心思 我的想法。
我也知道说了出来，有些事情会有很大的变化。
只是没想过能比陌生人更陌生。
我。应该再也不会做的事。
那段时间，感受
心 的撕裂
每晚都把头边的枕头弄湿。不爱说话。
静静的。就好。
因为不流血的伤更痛。

 22 April 2015
他荣获了类似 ‘好学生’ 奖状。 

12 June 2015
在他们家拍照留恋， 大家准备分离。
 我在他书里画了只猫头鹰。
 “All the best. Stay alive."

14 June 2015
他把我送的 handmade 书签 post 在了 insta.

18 June 2015
特意回去大学 你就认为她真的只为了 那个毕业展吗

第三次跟你搭巴士回你家吧。 不是我不要搭车，只是和你一起。 那个也许是最后一天见面的那天。 唱歌去了。那天是我第一次听你唱歌。
送我回家的路上， 你说了，you did what you had promised. 3 songs.
是说 彼此 再也不拖欠了吗。
声音很好听。

淋着雨跑回你家。
那时希望 雨能再大些 路再远些 淋的湿些 让自己梦醒

 19 July 2015
他第一天毕业以后工作。我画了他 cartoon portrait 发了过去。 收到的是很冷淡的谢谢。

 23 July 2015
问了他工作如何。 然后彼此也没再联络。

16 August 2015
send choc n doraemon

她的故事

17 June 2015
I don't know you purposely go back tm to accompany me or because of your pulami stuff. I'm just feeling lovely and appreciate for your accompanion. I love the way we chat in the bus, chatting like this can make both of us more understand each other. I love to listen about your stories and I also like to share you mine as well. Know you since sem 1 but this period only we are going this close. Hoping to know you more. I feel the kindness and caring all the way when we are heading back together, maybe you do this to everyone because you are always just nice to people around you. I couldn't admit that I'm slumber most of the time but don't you know saggitarius sometimes can be silly like a kid but sometimes they will also think like a matured.

22 June 2014
One U.
她第一次单独与他逛街，喝了他爱的奶茶。

24 June 2014
原本说好 25 与他的 siblings and cousin sing k, and at last I never join cuz his sis and cousin paiseh. (maybe i'm the one who should feel paiseh, never meet before jiu going sing k, it would be so awkward feeling), he said he bombard with his sis and cousin about this and I am feeling so sorry. "so next time u jio ur frens, then i join ur site" he said. But, this would never happen now.

 26 June 2014
She was kidding on wanting good morning wishes every morning and he said sure give you before 12pm.

 01 July 2014
He called her to watch " The one that got away" mv by Katy Perry.

 03 July 2014
He make sushi as lunch for his younger sister. How sweet.

 04 July 2014
抹地隔到手， 我有很 white eat. 

09 July 2014
Tropicana City Mall. Nadeje, PJU5,Sunway Giza.
 她第一次与他看戏， 看的是 Deliver us From Evil. 吃的是她一直想尝试的千层蛋糕. 口味是 strawberry 和 chocolate 吧， 还有杯忘了叫什么的饮料，only remember 里边有 longan and lychee.

Dinner with le bestiee

Planned to go home with Josh since the time I'm gonna reach kl is around the time my sis finish her class, so that we can go home together. But plan changed when this bae says she gonna have exam at kdu, which is my sis's university. Me and le sis waited this bae with a hungry stomach for 2 hours and then I thought we gonna have dinner soon but.... haha.. she still need to go her friend's house at aman puri to take her car and before that her friend need to go mont kiara to pick her sister from office.... and end up, we reached one utama around 9. Oklar~ haven't faint because of hungryness but I really hoping that human can do eating and sleeping at the same time lol. Ate sakae sushi, surprisingly I ate a lot than previous days at tm and hmmm full (=

Me and le sis pay for the Japanese dinner when this sopo sneak out to buy papa roti for us. And she still can 'throw in' money to my house. You win liao lor! Ish! I'm gonna take every way to give you back your money. =_=

No need say sorry to us for waiting 2 hours lar, we've said to have dinner together. (=
The only girl that still feeling so close even we never meet up for almost half year. (=
All the best to you. Stay happy and healthy. Loves.

That feeling

Stayed up 6 days 5 nights at Josh's house. Thankyou for the accompanion and hospitality of Jerjer and evonne too. Awwww, I should play around with them more, staying at their house is just too great, everyone is so close like at least they interact much. Too bad, all of them are going for their intern next semester and none of them will be at tm.. ahhh... seems lost many friends on next semester ):  anyway, good luck for the intern guys! All of you are just way to awesome, the graphic designer and animator-to-be ^^

Hmmm~ I feel something awkward between you and me. It's a somehow like a turning.. like getting closer.. at the same time I'm a little afraid Idunnowhy like urghhh what the hell I'm afraid of ):

I feel something.. is it happening or its just im thinking too much lol, the way you treat me is different aha~ I like it when you slice down the chicken for me, I like it when you want to help me finish that freaking spicy food (btw, Imma not going to order that anymore, it tortured my stomach for a few days), love every good night wishes from you (can i want good morning too lol), love it when it's your name that appears on the phone screen, I like it when we are watching movies together with your mac lol, I even love your smell! But sometimes only got that smell.. never smell dao yesterday when we going back together haha, Am I abnormal, I even miss that smell (like a weirdo okay... errrr...) but I really like it lah~ zzz 

We WhatsApp more frequent, I'm not hating it but worry pulak, like am I disturbing you or am I too annoying~ and you know what, these seems going to be as a habit. Like texting you is what I'm gonna do everyday and I even miss you. Waddahell with me. Figure it out figure it out hmmmmmmm kaybuay.

*really thanks for 'arranging' my phone! You are the only and first one who doing this lol and this is what I wanted to do for so long but I just like ehhhhrrrr let it be let it be and keep let it be lol. Loves.

爱是一种感觉

爱是一种感觉，说不清。爱赋予我们的不仅仅是一种心情，更多的时候它给予我们的是一种生活的态度。因为爱只是一种感觉，爱的全部需要只是一分真诚，一颗善良的心，一张微笑的脸，一双温暖的手都能感受这份爱，因为爱只是一种感觉。爱是一种责任一句简单的话却有着震撼人心的力量，爱，在某种程度上说是种责任。即使是爱一件东西，也需要有责任。

　　如果你爱花，就尽可能的让它尽情的绽放;如果你爱绿荫，就尽可能的让它长久的保留;如果你爱一本书，就尽可能的保持它的整洁;如果你爱一件衣服，就尽可能维持它美丽的样子……要知道，你做好了这些不单单是为了这些事物，更为了你的心得到快乐和欣慰，为了你爱的初衷和美好希望的实现，这本身也是一种美丽。

       爱是一种需要。人活在这个世界上，不可能没有亲情，没有朋友，没有爱。所以，爱是一种需要。爱是一种习惯爱上一个人是一种习惯，你习惯他的呵护，习惯他的温柔，习惯他的淘气，习惯他的笑容。甚至在不知不觉中，你习惯用他的方式微笑，用他的方式温柔，你们彼此互相依赖，依赖着这甜蜜的习惯。

　　爱是一种幸福，爱不需要理由，爱不需要逻辑，爱不需要看透，爱是一种幸福。幸福是一种感觉，一种境界，一种氛围，难以说得清，道得明，更勿需去请教别人。因为即便你翻遍所有人的人生记录，也难以找到自己满意的答案。你的爱情幸福与否，只有你自己才能够感知，被人看出的幸福，或许只是在生活中一些琐碎的插曲，浅显而缺少永恒的价值。

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那个他

Love is not cruelty. Just for it we are too fragile.
愛情並不殘忍。只是對於它來說我們太脆弱。

在愛情的面前我們都還是孩子，其實我們從未長大也還不懂得愛和被愛。

一個人一輩子可以愛很多次，傷過之後就再也無法癒合，

當愛開始出現猜忌與懷疑時，這段關係可能已經開始步向死亡，即使僥倖地活下來了，也帶著一輩子的疤痕。

正因如此，隨著世界運轉的改變，每個人對於愛都有自己獨特的見解，也因如此每個人的心中都有一道墻只是有的高，有的低。

愛情裡沒有對錯，殘忍的人選擇傷害別人，善良的人選擇傷害自己，但是終歸傷人傷己。

也許是太懵懂，愛的太衝動，付出的太多。也許是經歷過太多，被傷的太多，懂得自然也多，但往往我們真正懂得了的時候，也就是我們失去的時候，從來不知道自己得到了多少，也只有等到失去了之後才知道... 人都是等到愛過傷過真正失去過後才懂得要倍加珍惜，誰也不例外。

走過了那麼多痛你只能告訴你自己
人生短短幾十年，能放手去博去愛的日子有多長？

說不定哪天出了點意外，茫茫人海中，能遇到自己真心愛著的人能有幾個？

愛的原因是喜歡，喜歡的原因是有好感，有好感的原因是欣賞，欣賞的原因是了解，了解的原因是相識，兩個不曾有交際的人，因為有緣才相識相愛在一起。

兩個人相愛在一起並不容易

如果你曾經被傷害過，失去過
要懂得珍惜

人生無法做到完美，我們盡力就好了，剩下的交給命運。

總有一天你會遇上那麼一個人，他讓你的歡笑和淚水都變得有意義，他善待你，把你當成生命中最重要的那個。

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Meet up with le primary lovelies

Friday night. Organize an gathering event on Facebook and sadly there are just few people giving respond. I felt so hard to date with friends as we grew up. Thanks for those who show up, as usual, the familiar faces. (=
Shin Min, Moo, Ks, Thomas, Jia Lin, Xue Theng, Jia Hui, Sit Rong.
I love meeting up them even we never talk much, even just for a meal with laughters. Time flies, we grown, many transforming from single to couple. Okay, why am I still single while everyone said my face is a face that have boyfriend. @@ Whatever, don't get married because of time, so, it's just the same, don't couple because of time. God will arrange everything and I will wait. I would like a man who loves me more than I do.
And I should forget the one that live in my heart for about 9 years. I shouldn't let you live in my heart for another 9 years. Since we are just friend.
Oops~ it's too far~ okie, hope our friendship will stay forever! Keep in touch till we dead, primary lovelies!